Lifetimes of Miss Maymi- Chapter 1.4

It is the end of my christmas weekend, I had a lovely time, and I even cracked into my cream soda, I may even drink the whole bottle this year!
The eve of christmas was fairly boring I had work all afternoon in which nothing substancial happened.
I then went to midnight mass with my mum, it was weird being in church. I haven't been in a while and where I used to go often, I became one of the people that turn up to the special services.
The big day then came and I got lots of lovely presents, which I am very grateful for and will enjoy using.
However it is now the end of chirstmas- all the food has been eaten or thrown away and we feel full for days.
I do have christmas time with my dad's side of the family tomorrow, after spending the big day with my mother's side. But for me christmas is over- even before it really began.
I know that it's over because everything, as it does every year, goes back to normal. People go back to work, and we eat normal foods that don't take all day to prepare.
Today my aunt and cousin went back home. I really enjoyed my day with them, but it's always tinged with sadness because of the knowledge that they will be going back home, and there is no way of knowing for certain when I will see them again in the future.
Or will they, like me and going to church, be seen only of special occasions.
But because I love them it's hard to say goodbye everytime.
Tomorrow will be fun, but in the back of my mind there will be two family members that I feel should be there, by dad's brother and his wife. I can't remember the last time I saw them, which makes me sad- I know that thye live too far away just to pop down when they feel like, but I love them and miss them also, and will think of them tomorrow.
For me christmas is not only a time to enjoy with those that are there on the day, whether it be family or friends, but it's also a time to remember those that have passed.
I miss all of my family that have passed away, even those that I maybe didn't know very well at all- they wer still my family, still part of my past.
But there is one person I miss the most of all at christmas, and I will never ever stop missing them.
I am reminded of this person everyday, from when I first open my eyes.
I am reminded by the cuddly grey bear that I was first given when I was newborn.
Most people would say why keep the bear in sight if it hurts to remember- but for me it means that they are not forgotten, not even for one day.
This blog may be really saddening, especially not long after the christmas period, but it is important for me to remember my family always, I am who I am because of them.
And maybe next year the memories may be more faded, but they will still be part of my past, even if it is not spoken about.
So for another year, I hope everyone had a merry christmas, and will have a happy new year, and many more to come.

Lifetimes of Miss Maymi- Chapter 1.3

Today was a day when I have packed more into it than I can remember- I also drove my car for the first time in 6 days! Oh how I love you Tim <3
I started my day with finishing my christmas shopping, which I did with Mr Tom Chichester and his darling friend Kieran joined us.
However we did not get off to the best of starts- I went into town at half 10 to be at the bandstand for 11 (I got an eyebrow wax in the extra half an hour!!) and there I waited for a couple of minutes, but no Thomas.
It was cold so I started my shopping in New Look, and after 10 minutes I called Thomas- not only was I concerned about him because of his latness and he's usually very good- but because I needed help buying shoes!!
He didn't pick up his phone!! I was fuming! But let me backtrack slightly- he had text me in the morning saying could we meet at 11 rather than 10, which was fine with me! But then he sent me the one text he should probably wish he could take back, it said I think I'm still drunk!!
So not only was he late to see me, he would be hanging like a mofo.
I wouldn't have minded at all about the drunkness, but he had the cheek to be late, and still drunk!
I chose and brought the shoes all by myself!
I was close to sending him a text saying do not bother coming into town I don't need your help!!
But I didn't and it was quite fun in the end!
I think Kieran made it better!
=D
However later on in the day I had work!
I actually quite like my job, I think it's the people more than the job itself!
McDonalds is a quite stressful environment to work in, there are a lot of high expectations (if I'm the only one who thinks this then please can someone tell me so I can chill out a bit!!) from the public, which we strive to meet.
I wouldn't be able to cope if the people I worked with were not the most amazing (if very crazy) bunch of people I know- they always can lift my mood and they don't try. I think I genuinely just like being around them!
Anyways work has finished for the day and it's two more sleeps till the big day- but I'm very worried, although my christmas wrapping injected a bit of christmas spirit into my life, I am not feeling it, there is not excitement, just bleurg, where I should be bursting with festive joy!
Maybe this year I have left it all a bit too late- or have I passed out of my Peter Pan years and into adulthood, not to experience the chrismassy feeling until I have children of my own who rub their festive spirit off on me!
I don't want to loose the feeling of christmas though- thats like dying a bit inside!
D=

Lifetimes of Miss Maymi - Chapter 1.2

Today I got nocticed- all it took was for me to walk out of my house and into town!! I turned heads!!
But alas, it is not because I got star searched by the next big movie director- no I hit the ground like a sack of potatoes, and all because I escaped the evil claws of ice.
So what happened is, I went and started my Christmas shopping today, I know some of you very prepared people will be cowering in fear from my lack of organisation, (I'm talking to you, yes you, you who brought all the presents at the beginning of September!!) and just to let you cowerers know I'm still going to town tomorrow with my buddy ole pal Thomas Chichester, to go finish the rest of my shopping!!!
Anyway I was in town minding my own business when I hit an icy patch of pavement, I skidded forwards and could feel the pull of gravtiy, and the slow turning of other people's head in anitcipation of my humiliation, but AHA I stopped, stood there for a fraction of a second then got myself together, and with a quick smirk to those around me I stepped forward- I hit the deck faster than the speed of light- my brain was still telling me I was standing!! Until I heard the titters of those people around me, oh the shame, I bet it's all because I smirked!!
I pretty much ran around town after that getting what I needed, avoiding the gaze of others, and watching where I was walking!
I think I might take falling over as a new part of performing- it certainly got me noticed, and I may get further in my career (what IT is I have no clue as of yet), all because I can fall on my arse!!
But I made it home without further incident, and wrapped my presents to put under the tree- now I am usually the worlds worst person to wrap presents- does anyone watch the Miranda show on BBC- well her wrapping has been mine for the last 19 years!! But look at what I achieved today-

Aren't they wonderful! I was so proud that I took more than one photo!!
Even though I have had Christmas faerie lights up in my room since the beginning of December- I didn't really feel christmassy till I put the presents under the tree- so maybe this is why the super organised people out there buy presents in September, it means they are all nice and christmassy when it gets to December- not still trying to dredge up Christmas spirit 3 days before!!
I think I might do it differently next year...

Lifetimes of Miss Maymi- Chapter 1.1

Today was another day where the brilliance that is me was never discovered by some famous producer or director that just happened to be walking the streets of Crawley.
Then again he/she would have had to have taken a wrong turning and walked into my bedroom, which is where I spent the majority of my day.
The thing is with the heating still off and it being freezing in the house I though my best idea for avoiding freezing to death, was to lounge in bed all day, which turned into 5pm!!!
However the gas man has been and saved the day and turned our igloo into a warm house once more. I was so excited I threw myself into the shower!! Had the gas man still been at our house after my moment (15mins!) of bliss I probably would have kissed him!! Of course after dressing!
However this was not the only surpise that I have encountered during the space of today...
The first one was that my darling head of the household (my vater) had ventured into the great snow ridden landscape and brought me a bottle of cream soda!! Oh the joy!!! I haven't cracked into it yet- I will probably save it for thursday- Christmas eve eve, after my shift at work!! No reason just a treat to myself for working!! He found it in Asda (no surprises there if I'm honest), and I shall be eternally grateful!! Well maybe thankful for a short while! Okay I'll just say thank you!
The second surprise was that I actually like tidying- cue shocked gasps and the sound of a few close friends and family fainting- only the close ones cause they were the only ones that were let into my cesspool of a room!! Now this comes as a shock to me too mind- I HATED tidying, it was the biggest most pointless thing in the world- I mean who cared if I couldn't see the carpet- I certainly didn't and it was my room which I slept in (much to the horror of some relatives!). I even though it was pointless when I had the help of an army of friends and family who were helping me clean, yet still the scales of uncleaness did not fall from my eyes showing me the way that I have found in the last week!
I have gone tidy mad- everything has been hoovered, swept, mopped, dusted, shined- the list is endless, and so were the black sacks that entered the room empty, but left heaving with the "junk" I no longer needed!

And this is the result (it looks even better in real life!!)
But I genuinely love tidying- it is not quite fun, but it's a thing to be in control of- I can make the space I exist in look beautiful, and now that I have done a week of hard work, it only takes me 5 minutes to clean up any mess! Now thats the kind of tidying I like!!
And this is what I have done in my day!
No wonder nothing big happens- I don't go and search for it, I wait for it to come to me!!
I think I know what my first resolution for the New Year will be...

Lifetimes of Miss Maymi- Chapter 1

This is a first for my Lifetime. Never before have I Miss Maymi, created an object to be loved (I can aim for the stars right?!) by millions of people who access the internet everyday! And all I have this evening to do is complain. Now I could tell you loads about the 19 years perviously of my life- a waste of time, so I'll wrap it up like this- heartbreak, tears, tantrums, love, sister, mum, dad, a colourful array of emotions and some joyus memories, and some times I'd rather wipe from existence!! Okay so it is 2 weeks till my BIRTHDAY, I have spent 2 very uninteresting decades on this earth, moving through dependecy as a baby, through learning as a child and rebellion as a teenager, and now I am coming up to the next chapter- 20.
But first I have to get through Christmas so here is the Prologue.


Prologue
So today has been the same as always nothing major has happened to propell me into the world of movie stardom, celebrity land, or even into the local paper. Once again I am another nameless face roaming the streets of Crawley.
Now I should be all Christmassy and excited for what is to come in the next 5 days- alas I cannot! It is minus 2 outside and the boiler isn't working! This means no hot water and especially no heating!! So cue dressing michelin man stylie and a hot waterbottle.
And after today I was really looking forward to a hot bath!
Today consisted of buying a copius amount of alcohol to last the christmas season with my father, which intailed wrestling our way through Sainsbury's in the mad quest to find all the treasures we searched for.
I have never felt so claustophobic in my life, men and women pressed like sardines into the ailses of Sainsbury's, in one last mad dash to stock up on food and drink before the supplies ran out, and before the Snow decended upon us causing more chaos than there already is!!
Now I should be grateful- I got out of there alive with all limbs intact but no I'm not- they didn't have cream soda! The drink I ask for once a year, if only have one glass from it and leave it to go flat to be thrown away in march! But this drink of the Gods was not to be found gracing the shelves of Sainsbury's. Christmas will not be the same this year.
 So I came back dejected from the lack of Cream Soda- who knows this year may have been different- I may have had 2 glasses, threw myself down on the sofa to begin the greiving process and I got a phone call from my Aunt asking if I could take her dog for a walk.
So I did- to my own peril!
I was dragged across the park by Dennis the loveable Lab. I should be happy- I got exercise and a chance to see my favourite four legged friend, and even amused by the fact that he was almost violated by a dog named Luka, and spent the rest of walkies hiding behind my legs! But I am now suffering strained muscles, some of which I didn't know existed, so all fun and laughter of the earlier adventure is lost to mild discomfort!! So I was all excited for this evening- large glass of wine (to relieve the stress of Sainsbuy's), candles (to soothe the mind of the grief from the loss of cream soda), and an obsene amount of bubbles (just because), for all the hopes to be dashed by the gas man!!
Will I ever get what I want...